Unlike usual breakups, a broken engagement is a lot more difficult to handle. Let go is the hardest thing you can tell a lady that has just been heartbroken by a Man she loves, especially one she's engaged to. In 2013 after years of dating and been in serious love with someone I assumed was Mr right, we had done the usual family introduction and wedding plans was already in progress.
One gloomy Sunday afternoon, we were together and he received a call from his Father. He excused himself to answer the phone call and he came back not looking the same. He didn't telI me what the discussion was about but his countenance changed. While i was still trying to figure out his sudden mood change, i got a text message from his dad saying "By now I know you would have heard that we are no longer in your association with our Son, please find your way and leave him alone" That was exactly how he wrote it. I'm sorry, I can never forget that statement. That was the beginning of the end as at then, I fell ill immediately, started purging, battling with Cold and fever at the same time. It felt like that was the end of me. I went home alone with trembling knees, cold and shaky hands, and my face soaked in tears. Ooohh my oh my, I grieved. I cried, cried and cried until i couldn't cry again.
What have I done wrong to deserve this? Am I not wife-material? How can he do this to me after all those years? What is he looking for that I don’t have? Is there something wrong with me?
I asked myself these questionas and more.
I was a Front facing staff in my office and i was always in tears. I'm sure my network provider had a good time during that period because of the amount i was recharging daily. I called him several times to beg him and even suggested that we fast and pray but his response wasn't encouraging..."you cannot beat a dead horse or you know I have ulcer".
This was my life for over 10months, I shrunk in size as i was always starving myself.
But moving on, I joined a fellowship, started praying(my prayer points was for him to just come back and apologize).
God blessed me with amazing friends that made it a duty to call me daily and talk about something else just to distract me from what i was going through. I just couldn't let go or i was finding it hard to. I also knew that i didn't want to remain a shattered Lady so I started praying to God to help me get some sleep and i could tell that my peace was gradually being restored as i started sleeping well. I went further asking God for a good appetite, it worked!
Then i said to myself "God answer prayers". I soon became myself again, I was healing...i started smiling at work and then started applying makeup again....lol.... It took me about a year though to get over the whole thing...*smile*
I moved on. One good day, a friend called to ask for my consent to give someone my number, I said No. She called me about a month after to ask if she could give the same person my number, then i agreed. We got talking as friends and exactly one year after we met, we got married. Have I been happy? Veryyyyyy happy, Do I regret been heartbroken? No, i am grateful to God because i wouldn't have met my husband if i was still holding on to that painful experience. I am not only married to the most amazing man, i have amazing in-laws. God delivered my special package. He's preparing yours too..Letting go is a gradual process with the help and grace of God which is available to us through fellowship with him and other believers. If you're reading this and you're dealing with a broken engagement or nursing a heartbreak, i want you to know that you can never get anything lesser than God's best if you put Him first.
Yes, you may be hurting pretty badly right now, but please never forget that God has someone for you. Going through this unbearable pain could be His way of molding you to be the perfect spouse that He wants you to be.
As an end note, I just want to say that whatever sufferings I went through in the past played an important role in bringing me to what I am today – a happily married girl. So, cheer up and take courage. A beautiful sunrise awaits you.
Smile....
Anonymous writer...
wow.. disappointment turn blessings
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